I think I've found a great topic to start! Lets talk CSI! Okay, so we all know it's been televisions number one show since it first came out, right? Right. Soooo, I'm thinking since they're missing some of THEE the most important characters, this show is going to go down the tubes. I mean, really. Jorja Fox, if I'm not mistaken, quit. Which is her own fault. But lets talk Gary Dourdan. He was arrested for drug possesion back in....April, I think. But did they REALLY have to KILL him off? Now, if they ever even WANT him back, they cant have him because hes dead. So, if one day they're like, "Maannn, I miss me some Warrick Brown!! I want him back!" They can't have him unless he comes back from the dead. They could have just had his character leave/quit, but they have to completely rid of him because theyre assfucks. But anyway, Gil Grissom/William Peterson. He's deciding to leave too? HE IS THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON ON THE SHOW! THE LEADING STAR!!!! Why are these people leaving? Theyre probably paid hundreds of thousand of dollars. Don't get me wrong, money is NOT everything, but isnt that alone enough to keep them there? What is CBS doing that these characters are leaving? The show will never be the same. EVER. Marg Helgenberger, Eric Szmanda, George Eads, etc, have enough talent to keep the show going, but they have literally lost half of their cast. And it pisses me off.

And if anyone wants to say ANYTHING about Eric and George being gay/TOGETHER, who cares? It's not like they change once you found out, if ever, because they've ALWAYS been gay. So if you liked them before, you would like them now too. And there is still no proof as to their being gay or not.

 

Whoo, this felt good! haha.

 If she looks sad, he'll compliment her body. She tries to roll it off. He wont let her get out of his goddamn grip. He needs her to stay after school to go over some things. She decides shes not going to stay after all. She waits for the last bell of the day to dart through the crowds of people and hopes she'll make it out before he sees her. She asks to leave class early to get a head start and gets the okay from her english teacher. She walks briskly to her locker to drop off her books, but she sees him coming the same direction. She quickly turns around and heads for the girls bathroom before he can say anything to her. Too late. He's calling out to her but she pretends she doesnt hear him. She turns the corner and practically dives into the girls restroom. She waits as her heart pounds inside her chest so quickly she thinks she's going to faint. She hears his footstops nearing. Each step goes off in her head like a bomb. He's closing in. Closer, closer, closer the bombs become.

The drumming of his feet stops. She knows hes waiting for her to exit the bathroom. She can't wait in here forever, can she? She calms her breathing and collects herself, resists tears. She comes back out of the restroom and finds him leaning against the concrete walls with one arm resting on the wall, the other inside his pocket. Shes seen this pose before.

He loves to see her face catch fire.

When you have a lesbian friend, who most likely has a crush on you, what do you do? [rhymed.] yes, it may sound fucked up to basically abandon your friend because of this, but lets be honest, WHO WANTS TO GET HIT ON BY A CHICK IF YOU'RE NOT INTO IT?!? It's creepy and gross and awkward. alright, this shit goes back a longggg way. well, only about 11 months or so. So, a girl had moved in from another stateof which MY friend was friends with. So I was like, we have a mutual friend in common, so maybe i should talk to her. and so i did. and she was pretty cool. she and i were COMPLETE opposites. She liked to talk about comic books and "Emo" stuff while I preferred to talk about politics, religion, and problem-solving-type-things.

A few months into the friendship I started to notice some things. She would ALWAYS want to hug me. CONSTANTLY. and she NEVER talked about guys. and if i said something about one, she'd go all ballistic and be like "if he touches you, ill KILL him!" and shit like that. She admitted she felt protective of me and shit. She knew some of my "problems" dealing with self image, anorexia/bulimia, and self injuring. She would sometimes comment on how "pretty" id look that day and tell me my hair smelled good and shit. I always thought this was weird but it was whatever.

And a few MORE months later I heard rumors of her lesbianism. I was like, "okay, alright, no big deal. i dont know if shes actually gay, but its whatever because im not a homophobe anyway. i mean, my own brothers gay." and he was. but people started suspecting I was the gay one because I hung around her. Which SEVERELLYYYY pissed me off, dude. I was like, "yo, whats everyones dealio? ima calll their bitch asses out!" and so i did. people didnt just think we were gay, but gay for EACHOTHER.

And when I met a guy at the beginning of the school year, and told her of our "spending time together" she got all "BITCHHHH!" on me and hated me for it. she later admitted she was jealous. jealous of WHAT? jealous that im not gay for her. or for anyone. she would hug me, and keep her head next to mine like she was expecting me to kiss her or something. ughh. *shivers* She went away for a month, to where she had come from, and every day she'd either call me, email me, message me, whatever, etc. and shes constantly tell me she missed me and couldnt wait to see me. she'd send me things in the mail, like gifts almost. and she would tell me she loved me. and i could tell by the way she would say it that she didnt mean it in a friendly way. and when she returned, i had had ENOUGH of this and decided i wasnt going to talk to her anymore. but she eventually got the hint and decided to ask me to hang out every damn day it seemed. sometimes multiple times a day. sometimes, shed just show up at my door unexpected, uninvited. so what could i have done? slam the door in her face and make her bike her fat ass all the way across town again? i mean, i should have. i told her "NO!" but shed always come anyway. i should have slammed the door because it would make her realize she couldnt keep coming over like this so she WOULDNT anymore. shed realize she wasted her time biking 20 miles to get to me, and for what? NOTHING. and she'd always take pictures of me....and then set them as her background on her cellphone and shit. and shed stare at them and tell me how pretty i was. this was beyond being a lesbian, this was full on OBSESSION.

where was i going with this? hmmm i kinda lost my point for writing, but ill just ask this,

IS IT REALLY SO WRONG TO NOT WANT TO HANG OUT WITH A LESBIAN THAT HITS ON YOU WHO IS A FORMER FRIEND OF YOURS?!?!?

you cant tell me a bitch, because REALLY, if all of a sudden your friend of the same sex started hitting on you and suddenly feeling protective of you and jealous of anyone you talked to, OBSESSING over you, wouldnt you feel creeped out and kinda avoid them? probably. i almost feel like shes going to one day show up with a shotgun and blow my brains out of my damn head. like one of those jealousy stories you hear on the news or in magazines...internet. wherever, really.

i dont like this. not at all.